Anna and I have kept a blog since 2003 mostly to have a place to write about cute or poignant kid stories. We kept it behind a password since she was less comfortable letting it all hang out online than I seem to be. I’ve merged that blog into mine today both to share with friends and family and so I have one less blog and database to manage. It’s been simultaneously bitter and sweet to read through some of these old posts. I found myself sitting at work today just staring at Anna’s picture today. And then coming home and watching old movies of her with the kids.
I decided to add Anna as a author to my blog so you could see which posts she wrote (I now show the author by the post title). All of these old (and not so terribly old) posts are in the “Old Family Blog” category which can be found here. They’re probably more interesting to me (and to my kids someday) than to anyone else (perhaps excepting my brother who now subscribes and my folks who read on occasion, and any other family that reads - Hi Heather! Marcie? Dan? Erin? Eduardo? Dunnes? - ok maybe some people will enjoy the posts). Anyway, enjoy if you’re so inclined.
dpdunne
| 07-Mar-07 at 12:40 am | Permalink
hey jase-
lovin the new layout of the blog page. i just thought i would comment that i do get a chance to check out this page a few times a month, so keep it coming. i do find it interesting and i like being able to hear what my cousins are up to. I was thinkin about you guys, as strange as it sounds in the shower today, and i wrote down what happened in a somewhat poetic form after i was done. i thought i would share it with you since you share all your personal thoughts and experiences with all of us on your page…
here it is:
3/6/07
i spontaneously and uncontrollably
cried in the shower today
streams of warm water brought on
by the lyrics and meaning of yesterday
i covered my sockets with my palms of my hands
and tried to rub the tears away
but even more came when i thought my cousin,
alone, watching his kids play
… i stopped after that
love you guys
jase
| 07-Mar-07 at 8:20 am | Permalink
Danny -
Thanks for stopping by. That’s a pretty heartfelt poem. I do a lot of my best thinking in the shower too. When Anna first died, I would indeed watch them play and cry. I had one time at the pool when Ian’s shorts were hanging down and his butt crack was hanging out and it was so funny. I had no one to share that funny moment with and I really lost it there at the pool. But we’re mostly ok now and adjusting fairly well.
Nice to know you stop by regularly. I try to stop by your Facebook from time to time too. Wish Facebook had a blog thing. You kinda have to figure out what’s up with people by reading their wall posts.
Love you too, Danny.
heidi
| 10-Mar-07 at 9:48 pm | Permalink
Jase, Thanks so much for your sweet comments and for coming to visit via Thordora The Witty and Excellent.
I’m definitely blogrolling you, and I’ve been touched so many times browing through your blog. I’m taken aback completely by your ability to write so openly and sweetly about Anna so very soon after her passing. I lost my mother in 2001 and it still feels so much like an open wound most of the time. My prayers are with you and your littles.
I’m also delighted to see how much we have in common- I’m a UU, obsessed with handwriting, etc. I’m excited to read more.
peace, h
jase
| 12-Mar-07 at 12:26 am | Permalink
Heidi - Thanks for stopping by and for the kind words. We do seem to be kindred spirits for sure. I’m enjoying your writing quite a bit - you seem to have a great wit, a good spirit and a strong creative streak. I also am adding you to my blogroll and look forward to reading more.